Beautiful mess

Life is messy.

No matter how much we try to sort it into nicely labeled bins of organization, it always pops back into our face like a snake in a can.

We have been learning this about life lately. Back in mid-September we quit our full time Associate Pastor position at Christian Assembly, thinking that we would sell our house and move by October 7th. That was our nicely labeled date. Our organized move. Everything was in place for our scheduled plan, and we prayed and fasted incessantly for God to make our plan come to pass.

And the days ticked off the calendar, and October 7th passed us by. After that the days, then weeks slid by, and we watched them blur past and wondered in frustration what was happening. What were we doing wrong. Did we not pray or fast enough. Did we need to ask forgiveness for something. Fix a relationship, give up more of ourselves. We struggled with the question on if we should get jobs in Wausau, or wait in faith that God would provide.

It has been three months since our last day a Christian Assembly, and as we arrive at the end of our time in Wausau we realize like a new revelation each day, that life is messy, but is a beautiful mess. Gorgeous really. This journey of faith has changed us. And it’s not even close to being over. We are moving to Portland, without our house selling. We are starting a church with some amazing people that that want us involved so much that they have offered their home to us while we wait for home to sell. It is beautiful people like this that are part of our mess. And we wouldn’t have the chance to see this kind of beauty if we had lived within the organization.

And so the end of this chapter in the journey is soon coming to the end. The calling is crying out within us to be in Portland, surrounded by the people that we already love but have yet to meet. We can’t wait to be there.

So on we go with this beautiful mess, this journey to the brokenness that God can so use in all His servants. As we move on from here sometime in the first week of the new year, we crave your prayers. We need a safe journey to Portland, for our home to sell, and for the hearts of the people of Portland. That God would already be creating moments where they feel His presence, and then we would be able to be that divine nobody in their lives to lead them to the love that will never let them go.